fix it

when u drive this far,

u think u go far enough..

but dun ever think that u just get what u want but not wut u need..

i think that we should change the preference of that.

i think we left something there..

couldn't we just completely understand wut we want it here..

i think we live in the world that we just pretending to be good.

does we want to be like we want.

or u believe that something that we working on rite now is the good idea..

i start thinking i should lead this war..

start to reposition..

where to start...

where to shot..

where to release..

reload the happiness..

clean the blood..

be true faithful...for never be ashamed..

i just want u to know that i really want this happen.

i need you become realistic.

we come this far away..

we need to make the decision rite now...

i think we need..

i still ask....

i know that i can never ever pay You
for all the debts You lent me in my days
yet humbly for more i still must ask You
and praise You though You do not need my praise

He is there for me when no one else will listen..
He is there for me when no one else will care..
and with his love my inner self can listen..
and lose its darkened troubles and despair..
i know that i can never ever pay You..
for all the debts You lent me in my days..
yet humbly for more i still must ask You
and praise You though You do not need my praise..
my worldly wants do not mean a thing to You
for Your eternal giving knows no pair

and when i'm needing i turn only to You
for You are kind, and just, and Ever-Fair.
when i'm alone, He is always there beside me
we meet and talk fives times in every day
and all alone..knowing his presence by me..
i turn my face towards His and then i say
i know that i can never ever pay You
for all the debts You lent me in my days
yet humbly for more i still must ask You
and praise You though You do not need my praise

i still ask, for no one else will listen
and i still ask,for no one else will care
on that last day, when fires are a-listen
and enter gardens those for whom You care!!!!

Stuck with money problems.. :(

The things now ruins my life.. if i can fix it.. people said money is not everything.. But everything needs money... May god bless me for the thing that i have done for the money..

-the taste that i'd feel-

sometimes when u come to me
then i think u're just make ur decision to be with me..
but when u make something..
i can't feel the thing that u wanna make me realize..
u just make me realized that we can't make the people choose the way you're choose.
when u came and tell me bout Ur soul,
u just mentioning that whats yours..
i meant where's mine?
didn't u feel bout my heart..
u even know what i'm thinking..
i'm trying to push my self to make us become "flying" in our world..
but u burn our root..
make it crash..
i'm thinking just few far infront.
to show how my soul need you..
if someday u chose to left me and us..
i chose to pray to make me stronger than hercules.
to keep my sanity..
to keep my tears..
to keep our memories to be remains..
just only u stand at the top of my heart..

that is what u lefted that day..

u left something when u leave that day... i hope i can keep it... please.. i need it.. :(

i'm praying for ur safe journey..

Dear God...

i pray for u about my friend going to some place to find peacefull..

but .. in my heart.. i try to find a way to stop her from going..

should i make it?

can't she see it all this about her..

i'm just worried..

i know her ..

her stubborn..

so i just have one choice.. it is pray for her safe journey..

please god.. take care of her..

let her find her self.. let her find what she need and what she looking for..

Amin...

How Guilty i am..

Start form that night.. i was feel guilty.. so guilty to her..

what should i do..

how me to pretend to be..

fuh.. so hard..

for this moment.. i just can pray for the bad thing will not be exist.

i was regret..

One Night..

I was there last night..

Swing

Have you ever felt like one of these swings?
Empty?
Lonely?
But then soon someone comes along and fills you up.
And you are complete.
And it's fun!
But have u ever notice that this swing just give the people chill up..
the swing just give out..
even He know that someday....
someday.. it will be leave again..
But who cares??
Itself also dun care bout his heart..
its more than enough to make who play the swing be happy..
for sure the swing will be happy too..
aite?? it's means.. It rather to stay to see poeple happy.. then it make it happy to... :)

Boring...

Finally.. i just sigh to my self.. i'm bored..
i'm sick and tired to be here..
for the like hell life.. somewhere in my heart saying this to me..
"Please god.. take me away..."
but who am i?? to asking that stupid wish..
is it my sins was clear??
please god.. i'm begging for the better life from YOU..
take me from this situation..
wake up in the morning with hoping something..
when coming back to bed for sleep, with same hope.. another hope..
:(

Sad but need to keeps smile..

dear god..

You know how hard i keep smile like this.. Even in my heart for sure u know how sad i am..

but i needed to smile rite?

yeah.. smile owez..

For those that i dedicate this message....

no worries.. even been sad..

I will owez smile.. no matter how.. :)

Untuk hari-hari yang aku akan lalu..

Aku akan segera bangun stiap kali aku jatuh..

Aku akan terus sabar stiap pada stiap bende yg menimpa ke atas ku..

Aku akan cuba untuk mengubah nasib aku yg aku rasakan tidak cukup bagus untuk masa akan datang.

aku akan cuba untuk terus puaskan hati semua pihak selagi termampu..

aku juga akan cuba melakukan segala perihal dengan cara yang terbaek..

aku cuba untuk mengeraskan hati ku yg kurasakan cukup lembut...

aku akan terus mengingati segala yang aku rasakan cukup indah bagiku untuk dilupakan..

aku juga akan cuba untuk tidak tangisi apa yang terjadi pada kejadian yang lepas..

Aku akan terus cuba dan terus cuba untuk berdoa untuk seluruh hidupku agar aku kuat dalam menjalani hidup sebagai sorang insan di atas muka bumi ini..

dan semua ini adalah untuk hari-hari yang akan aku lalu....

Peace of mind..

Kata kata dari hati

Perempuan.

Senang di bicara dalam erti kata lain..
ibarat tanah liat..
dipegang dengan kemas, kemik la tanah liat tersebut..
dipegang terlalu longgar, jatuh ke tanah dan rosak terkena pasir..
Terlalu menjaga dan selalu disiram dengan air... cair juga akhirnya..
untuk itu.. pegangla dengan selesa, simpanlah ditempat yg betul agar senang dibentuk... :)

3 rasa.

Apa yang kte leh citer pasal 3 rasa nie..
korang mesti duk pikir pasal 3 rasa yg lain kan..
bukan masak ikan 3 rasa k..
tapi aku nak citer pasal 3 rasa yang aku rasa skunk..
aku rasa..
SAKIT.
SEDEY.
HAPPY.
Nak tau nape aku saket?
aku bukan sakit pe pown..
sakit ati bile once kite percaya kat org nieh, tapi die cam tikam kita dari blakang lak..
hesh..
ape nak jadi la kan..
aku xkesah pown sebenarnyer..
sebab tuhan dah tunjukkan sume nyer..
tuhan dah bagi jalan pada aku..
aku just berserah padanya then redha je ngan ape blaku pasnie..
sebab kita kan ade pencipta and tuhan..segalanya die tahu n die akan bg yg terbaik tuk hambanya kan..
Sedey.
Sedey sangat bile ingat balik ape bende yg dah belaku before.
mmg la xbaek tuk ingat perkara yg dah lepas.
tapi bukan niat kite nak ingat sume bende tu.
once aku ingat.
aku cepat2 buang ingatan tu..
aku pikir bende lain.
aku xnak ingat pown pasal bende yg leh wat aku sedey.
aku dah janji ngan diri aku sendiri..xnak sedey2 lagi dah..
sebab bukan diri aku yg sebenar kalau sedey2 nie.
HAPPY??
aku happy sangat bile sume bende yg menyakitkan hati aku then yg wat aku sedey tu aku berjaya atasi..
so bende tu wat aku happy sangat..
then satu lagi yg leh wat aku happy is...
aku dapat smthg yg amat berharga dalam idop aku..
aku xkan cakap la ape die kan..
cume aku sorang je tau.
hehehe..
ini one of the luahan hati aku lepas sume bende dah jadi kat aku slame nie..
nanti aku post lagi kalu ade..
so topik yg terbaru akn ku post kan nanti is TRIP TO IPOH WITH JOMGIG!!!
so korang layan je la k...tataatatata..

Tuhanku...

ya Allah...aku tau aku hanya pelakon di atas pentas dunia mu ini ya Allah..
tapi aku tak penah sangkakan sampai ke tahap ini ujian yang kamu berikan..aku hanya takot pada dugaan yang kau berikan ini ya Allah..aku takot untuk berdepan..aku xcukup kuat untuk harung sume nie...aku berharap sangat aku dapat perbetulkan sume yg aku telah lakukan..aku juga berharap dapat aku kembalikan semua kegembiraan aku selama ini..aku tidak lagi seceria dulu ya Allah..

Mungkin aku xpenah bersyukur dengan nikmatmu Ya Allah... Kembalikan kegembiraan aku itu ya Allah.. Kau telah berikannya selama ini dengan baik sekali..aku bersyukur Ya Allah..aku amat perit dalam keadaan ini ya Allah...kalau la mmg ditakdirkan aku tidak dapat kegembiraan itu lagi..engkau hadiahkan kegembiraan yang penah aku kecap itu padanya..Hanya itu yang aku pinta dariMu Ya Allah..Engkau jagalah dia dari segala perkara-perkara buruk .. Hanya engkau yang mampu Ya Allah...

All I beg is that you’ve taken care of her and will continue to do so. she deserves to be happy for once, because you’re the only one who can hand it to her. Make sure she knows we all love her, that I’m sorry, and that I will love her forever and ever times a million times a billion times infinity plus one. I swear.